Chosen

I want to begin making this blog for EJ to be my prayers for him through scripture. There may be some other thoughts I have about the scripture I'm reading.

1 Peter will be the book I go through over the next week or so...

1 Peter 1:1-2
 "Peter, an apostle of Jesus Christ, To God's elect, strangers in the world, scattered throughout...who have been chosen according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, through the sanctifying work of the Spirit for obedience to Jesus Christ and sprinkling by the blood..."

**God, make EJ your elect. That he may be a stranger in the world. To live in the world, but not of the world. I don't know the plans he has for you, but he already has them written in his book. (Psalm 139:16)

**May you make good choices, EJ, and live within the Father's will. That you may be obedient to Jesus Christ. You are so very loved by Him. Chosen by Him for so much, I just know it!

**Stay strong in this dark world...don't let Satan have a foothold on your life.

I love you precious one! You're getting so big! 14 weeks old as of today, and you make every day in your daddy and my life so happy!!! Can't wait to continue watching you grow and pouring the love of Jesus into your heart and life.

Confused

Ok, baby boy. You're getting your mommy all stressed and confused.

Last week (10/21) we went to the Dr and started our weekly visits along with pelvic exams. I saw Dr. Hudson, who said I was already dilated 1.5 - 2 cm. He said he was pretty surprised by this, especially since I was only at 35 weeks & 4 days, and it's my first pregnancy. He pretty much told us that if i had timed contractions to call and come on in, that it could very likely be labor at this point.
He also said that he'd really like for things to wait until Nov 3rd, or especially the 10th before anything happened. That'd put me at 36 or 37 weeks.

So all week, I felt great after that. Convincing myself that Evan was going to wait. No contractions, no more pelvic pain as I had been having previously.

Until Friday. I started having contractions around 5pm, and had them up until about 10pm, about once every hour. That was interesting... Thehubs just looked at me at one point and was like "Is our baby coming tonight?" I of course, said "no, babe....if anything it'd be tomorrow before he comes since things are really progressing."

So once they ended I felt relieved, but MUCH MORE pelvic pressure/pain. Like, couldn't hardly get comfortable or sleep. When I stood up, I was afraid he was going to fall out of me. Sharp pains down in that area and all of that good stuff.

Saturday was okay. My parents came out and mom and I went to Target to get some stuff needed for his room and what-not. While walking around Target, I initially felt okay, but could definitely tell the more I walked the more pressure I felt. No real contractions Saturday that I know of. I might have had a few Braxton Hicks, but I'm really not sure at this point.

So now to today. This morning, I'm pretty sure I had a few contractions...nothing major and nothing that lasted. It's about 5:30pm now, and I've had 3 contractions in the past hour. I feel horrible....but then again I feel like I should suck it up and move on.

What I'm really frustrated and confused about is the difference between Braxton Hicks contractions and "real" contractions at this point. I don't really know...and sometimes I even feel sharp pains in my back and stomach, but my uterus isn't real hard like I feel like it's supposed to be during a contraction.
So I'm just confused....

I'm pretty sure I'll KNOW when it's the real thing, and I guess that's why they tell you to wait until contractions are 10 minutes apart and timed for at least an hour before coming to the hospital. I would guess once they're that frequent, then I'd be in LOTS of pain and pretty certain that it's the real deal.

So we go back to the Dr tomorrow and I'm anxious to see if I've dilated anymore. I also want to ask about any thinning that's occurred, and where's he's positioned as far as how far down he is. Oh, the questions increase for the Dr. each week!

We shall see when you decide to arrive, but I have a feeling it will be before your due date of November 17th. :)

week 28

For the record:

~ You have been moving around a ton here lately. Over the past several days, you've been up a little higher than usual. Pushing on the ribs a bit, and making mommy have to lean back to get a good breath.

~ Bending over is much more difficult just in the past week. It hurts, actually. But that's ok, I know it's because you're a growing little boy and getting ready to make your grand entrance into this big ol' world!

~ My sciatic nerve is still apparently being crushed by you. Dr says it might be because my uterus is positioned more to the right side of my body. Even as i sit here now propped up on the couch, my right neg is numb and tingly. I can't walk around a store or anything for more than about 5-10 minutes without my lower right back causing me great agony and my right let going numb.

I'm getting used to the pain, as I realize that life must go on despite the weird, unpleasant feelings, but I'll certainly be glad when I can get back to whatever normal is.

~ I was thinking about you this morning, and how I can't wait to just hold you. I feel all your movements in my belly, and I sometimes wonder if you're trying to get comfortable or if you're playing. I can't wait to watch your every movements, amazed at your beauty!!

~ Craving of the week...SPINACH!!! I made a pasta spinach recipe a few weeks ago, and feel in love with it! This week, I've been trying to just find something good to each with spinach in it. No luck so far, so I have a feeling I'll be making my pasta recipe again! Good news about that is that daddy doesn't like it, so I get to eat it all to myself!!!!

Psalm 119

Mommy was reading in Psalm 119 this morning, and stopped on a verse that talks about loving and delighting in God's commands. So my prayer for you today, as it is for your daddy and me is that you will love God's commands.

I pray you will grow in his love and begin to grasp how wide and deep it is at a young age. I pray your life will be one that gives Him glory. May you always delight in the Lord, taking the narrow path instead of the way of man. May daddy & I always show you His love, leading and guiding you to make the right choices throughout your live.

God is good

Little one,

Today I started this blog for you, because I feel like I'll actually write out my thoughts and prayers to you more on here verses the little I have done in the journal I bought for you.

That's right, I bought a huge journal way back before you were even conceived. I recorded the "adventure" of daddy & I becoming parents, and finding out you were going to be our precious son from God above.

I want this blog to be filled of my prayers for you...so here goes.

Today, I pray for God's protection as you continue to grow in mommy's womb. I pray all of your organs, muscles and every body part has been developed strongly, and continues to strengthen over the next 12 weeks. I love you so much, and I know that God has formed you exactly the way he has had in mind since the beginning of time...He created you.

I looked up your name meaning for the 1st time today and saw that it means "God is good." Oh, how true that is! I'm not exactly sure why daddy & I have not looked at the meaning before this point- I guess just because we liked the name so much, we stuck with it. But I got a huge smile on my face this morning when I saw that. My prayer is that you will see the goodness of God throughout your life. That daddy & I will demonstrate His love and goodness to you everyday.

I love you precious one. I wish I could hold you now as you are squirming around in my belly...but I know you will be here in His perfect timing!